|  Hey guys well wow its been a long time!! All of you out there must think I just abandond you or something and I kinda did. For the past almost a year I have whent from hating life to feeling myself again and turned 18!!! Well I have moved to www.myspace.com/ponypunk . check it out to you all and I love and miss you all!
Jessy
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| Sad nights and sleepy mornings
Current mood:  crushed
Well last night was very sad in many ways. Today is sleepy. I got up at 3 am to put my horses in for a thunder storm. Lightning stuck right out side the barn so I was stuck in the barn for about a half hour. I was too scared by the close strike to venture out till the storm died down a bit. I sleped in till like 9 and now I want to go disapear into nothingness.
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| Its been so long sence my last post. SO MUCH HAS CHANGED. I had a 2 year relationship that whent down the tubes because of something(that I cant name). That nearly killed me literly. I left him but it still hurt like heck. I lost allot of weight though so I guess thats a good thing that came from being depressed and not wanting to eat. Well Its been over a month now and things are looking up. Im in a new relationship now. Only my second ever relationship and its scary affter the last but its going great. He's truely a great guy and I trust him emensly. Trust has never been easy for me and affter what has happend its not any easer now. Things are Peachy(as my guy says). He's great life is looking up and I know the same thing that happend to my ex will not happen to this guy. I am still friends with my ex. Hes not a bad guy. But any way the former mr.right is back on the marcket and another mr.right is off of the marcket!
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| My life is falling down around me. But I gotta keep on going keep on living. Nothing really does last forever. I've had to let the most important thing to me go. I really dont know what to do right now other than lay down and cry into my pillow. Some times I am ok than something triggrs a thought and I remember again. I have a moment of feeling that should not be there. I am trying not to let it mess up my life. I have to live I have to go on things will get better simply because they have too. No one can come and save me can come and take my pain away. I saw my life being with some one but when its not what the other needs or wants its time to more on. I need to more on and let go.
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| Well I finaly have given up on people. That was it no more for me. I trusted but learned better felt but learned better. Planed a future but was just a space filler to something better. I always seem to be some ones space filler till something better. Well thats it im done
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